My Day Today ☆ミ

10/29 — I've gone to work this week. I am finding it difficult to work a community service job during this time in American history. I'm depressed about how miserable everyone is, how miserable I am... and will it ever change? Maybe my mindset is so low because I haven't eaten consistenly and my body is weak, but I don't know how much would change if I was also in peak physicial form. I could just be coming undone or the 899.3 hours I've clocked in Cyberpunk2077 is catching up to me? I'm just not feeling very hopeful about the future. I need a Brendan or Delamain. They could fix me lmao

10/25 — I didn't go to the Halloween Party at The Virgil tonight. I was excited to go, very rarely are there events that play the kind of pop music I like... but the What Ifs stopped me. That's a shame, I'll try to do better next time. October seems to be going full speed ahead. I guess it's the end of the year that rushes by... I feel like I was just making my Mood Board for 2025 yesterday. uh-oh is the seasonal depression starting to hit? Yikes.

10/24 — I didn't go to work all week. I got sick. I grow anxious about the state of the world. I also grow frustrated with my Guest Book coding. But maybe this is the kick in the ass that I need? I just want to create a space that I myself want to spend time in. I grow tired of doom scrolling and shopping- the net used to be a fun place to be.

10/21 — I called out of work today (well techincally yesterday the 20th) but I started my Guestbook! I'm really impressed with my coding skills, it's not perfect but it's getting there.

10/19 — I dread going to work tomorrow... I wish I didn't have to go.