04/26/26 — I just finished Ep.3 of Euphoria, and that scene when they get home from the wedding and the scene of Rue back at Lori's house are stuck in my head. Visually those scenes are so powerful in the directing and acting, like I know so many people are upset about this season... but I'm enjoying it. He said I always find a way to tie everything back into Cyberpunk, but it really is the story or the many stories of Night City. Everyone is coming into money and power, and in a city like Los Angeles that's going to lead you into some Night City sidequests. I'm also a bit sad that I have to go into my office job tomorrow. I pulled a reverse Eight of Pentacles card.

03/19/26 — Arirang is out. SWIM MV is also out. I can't remeber the last time I felt such happiness... maybe it was around this time last year when Jhope came to LA. And again when Jin came to Anaheim. Army, BTS is back (˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ )づ♡

02/27 — I made it through another work week. I would like to go out into the night.

02/19 — I'm watching Reality Check: Inside America's Next Top Model and I have a lot of thoughts on this show. Tyra claims that she "slammed the door open" for influencers and that's so strange. Their first plus-size model Whitney is 5'6" and 115lbs (at the time of filming in like 2005). I'm currently 5'5" and 115lbs... and I don't think I'm plus size. But maybe I'm size blind? I had a set of flase lashes on my desk just a momement ago, and now I'm only seeing one. Beauty and fame is so ugly and cheap.

02/18 — Happy Lunar New Year Hana ☆ミ I've been working on myself, and I've gotten a new cat! Getting him adjusted to his new home has been a task... I'm trying to find other work options, I think staying in my current office is depleting my life energy. I'm getting new shelves for my room! I hope to show you my new setup soon (૭ ｡•̀ ᵕ •́｡ )૭ I've been posting on TikTok https://www.tiktok.com/@animebabehana (I should try to get Hana's Room... it's what I use everywhere else)

Jan.17.2026 — Happy New Year Hana ☆ミ I've made it to another new year, and just like last year I hope to grow and experience a lot of life events. I've been sucked into work, and I've been struggling to find "Work Life Balance" and I'm a bit disappointed in myself. However, this week BTS tickets go live and they will be in my area in September. It feels good to be back here... I missed being in the net. This is really my home, and I've been gone far too long.

11/6 — The super moon was last night - as I'm updating this it's 1AM - I should go to bed but I want to finish my Sapporo. Life is C+ right now.

10/30 — I went to Old Town Pub in Pasadena and I had such a fun time! I was media for a band... I felt human

10/29 — I've gone to work this week. I am finding it difficult to work a community service job during this time in American history. I'm depressed about how miserable everyone is, how miserable I am... and will it ever change? Maybe my mindset is so low because I haven't eaten consistenly and my body is weak, but I don't know how much would change if I was also in peak physicial form. I could just be coming undone or the 899.3 hours I've clocked in Cyberpunk2077 is catching up to me? I'm just not feeling very hopeful about the future. I need a Brendan or Delamain. They could fix me lmao

10/25 — I didn't go to the Halloween Party at The Virgil tonight. I was excited to go, very rarely are there events that play the kind of pop music I like... but the What Ifs stopped me. That's a shame, I'll try to do better next time. October seems to be going full speed ahead. I guess it's the end of the year that rushes by... I feel like I was just making my Mood Board for 2025 yesterday. uh-oh is the seasonal depression starting to hit? Yikes.

10/24 — I didn't go to work all week. I got sick. I grow anxious about the state of the world. I also grow frustrated with my Guest Book coding. But maybe this is the kick in the ass that I need? I just want to create a space that I myself want to spend time in. I grow tired of doom scrolling and shopping- the net used to be a fun place to be.

10/21 — I called out of work today (well techincally yesterday the 20th) but I started my Guestbook! I'm really impressed with my coding skills, it's not perfect but it's getting there.

10/19 — I dread going to work tomorrow... I wish I didn't have to go.